Tonight I have been especially overwhelmed in my brain. There is so much in there and I don't know what to do with it. Well, I do know what to do with it, but conveniently enough, I almost always forget to do it.
I can get so caught up in just thinking sometimes (without ever working out a solution, mind you) that I fail to remember that Someone else knows what's floating around up there as well. And He's more than happy to collect it and help me sort it if I ever decide to let it out.
I am continually amazed at how simple it is to work at knowing God and even more amazed at my reluctance to do it. Am I worried that I won't like His solution to my myriad issues? And does that stem from me not trusting Him to have what's best for me in mind? Probably.
This particular entry really doesn't have a direction to go in...but I was tired of keeping some of my thoughts stuffed in my head. That said, here is a short list of things that have been crowding out my brain cells:
1) I've been spending a lot of time thinking about my life and what I have done with it so far. 8 years ago this month my Grandpa Smith and a guy I went to school with passed away within about 2 weeks of each other. It's an interesting pairing because both deaths cause me to reflect on my life in different ways.
Although I believe Grandpa was taken too soon for me, he lived a full life and loved the Lord with all of his heart. I think about him and what an example he was to me of strong faith. His life inspires me to seek God out in all things and to let Him rule my decisions.
And then I think about Dave and how he was taken from this earth way too soon. And it causes me to think about all the years I have been blessed with since then. In the 8 years that I've had to live that he has not, what have I done? There are many wasted years in there, but I pray that God would use his death to remind me that every day is precious. That every life is precious. That every moment that passes is one that I will never have again. Will I use these moments for God's glory or my own?
2) On a much lighter note, I've been so in awe of worship music lately. Worship music is my favorite style anyway, but a couple of weeks ago I was listening to the radio and I was just overwhelmed by the thought of how much music there is out there that brings glory to God. People have been writing songs about God's greatness, love, mercy, and grace for thousands of years. And we still manage to come up with new songs all the time!
How great is our God that people all over the world, spanning thousands of miles and years, are continually blessed with fresh revelations and inspiration that can only be shared through the gift of music? I may not like all the styles, but that music is an expression of soul-deep change! That music is born of inspiration only given by the Holy Spirit - how cool is that?!
And lastly, on an abrupt note, my head and heart feel much lighter so I thank you for indulging my brain barf (gross, but an appropriate analogy I'm afraid).
Until next time...whenever that may be... :P
